Friday, December 18, 2009
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
It makes me crazy how tired I am and how when I get into my nice cozy bed all I can do is think. I haven't always been this way, it seems to have started after I had Braden which makes me wonder how much of a nutcase I will be after this baby comes.
Things are ok right now but everyday we are waiting for Jon to get laid off. We know it is going to happen we just don't know WHEN. I am constantly worried that when he gets laid off there won't be any work, and we will lose everything. We decided to try for this baby because we felt secure and I am scared things are going to end up like they did when we had Braden.
Braden wasn't planned but you have to go with the flow. When he was born we were BROKE, maybe pulling in $750 every two weeks. Some months we couldn't pay rent and had to borrow money from our parents for diapers and formula. I always said that when we had another one things would be different and I really hope that is the case. I don't want to live paycheck to paycheck ever again and we are going to do everything we can to make sure that doesn't happen.
I suppose everything always has a way of working themselves out and "everything happens for a reason" Jon and I have dealt with bigger problems before and have come out just fine. I need to be able to accept the fact that worrying profusely everyday will not change anything that is going to happen. I know that but it doesn't stop my mind from over analyzing everything we do and every penny we spend. This stress and anxiety is exhausting and probably not the best for me. *sigh* I could really use a day on a beach right now....
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
Thursday, September 3, 2009
I have come to realize:
I will never have the perfect body
I will never be a perfect mother
People closest to you hurt you the most when they let you down
Never doesn't always mean never
Mid life crises do exist
You never get used to losing people you love
You can forgive but hardly forget
I have a lot to learn
My mother made me who I am
Motherhood is exciting, terrifying,a dn rewarding all at the same time
I have no idea what I want to do with my life
I am a good person
The drama doesn't stop after high school...it lessens
There is always someone out there who will try to bring you down
People do deserve second chances...just not third, fourth, or fifth
Some people will never change
I do not regret anything
I am a strong person
Sometimes I take things for granted
My son changed my outlook on life
Sometimes it is better to shut your mouth even if you know you are right
I can't fix everyones problems...as much as I want to
Laughter is the best medicine most of the time
I have the best family and friends (ok I have known that for a loooong time)
I can be needy
I love to be loved
It is ok to be wrong
Ok your turn!
Thursday, August 13, 2009
08/07/09 will officially go down as one of the best nights of my life. I know I sound like a freak to a lot of people for the ways I love No Doubt, bbut deal with it. I almost didn't go to this concert but I decided to anyway. It was one of the longest days ever, but it had the best outcome ever!
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Monday, July 27, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Ok seriously....wtf is this???? These bags are hideous......bleh! I mean is that rubber in there RUBBER? Gwen you are supposed to be a fashion icon and you put out this crap? Ok I know this isn't the ENTIRE line and there MIGHT be something I like down the road but the preview you have released does not look good. Well, maybe I should thank you, because these bags are so ugly I will not be dropping $500+ on one this season and I can actually save some money. Nevermind the almost $500 I have spent on No Doubt tickets this year, oh pish posh! I seriously hope that you go back to the drawing board and pump out some fabulousity for the Spring '10 line missy!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Today is the second day in my I'm quitting smoking journey. I have decided to quit for a few reasons.
- I want to live a long time
- I hate smoking outside in the summer with the bugs!
- I want to set a good example for Braden
- It smells yucky!
- my blood pressure decreased
- my pulse rate dropped
- and my body temperature went up
8 hours after my last cigarette:
- Carbon monoxide levels in the blood return to normal
- Oxygen levels in blood return to normal
24 hours after my last cigarette:
- chance of heart attack decreases (scary!)
48 hours after my last cigarette (and where I currently am):
- Nerve endings start regrowing (what??)
- Ability to smell and taste is enhanced (great not I'll be hungry more)
- Shortness of breath decreases
So it is nice to know there are some benefits since we are a world of "get immediate results"
Now if I could just find a diet or a magic pill to make weight fall off IMMEDIATELY!