Monday, May 24, 2010

Poor Braden

Braden ALWAYS beats Jon and I at Candyland, and we ALWAYS try to beat him. we have never let him win and no matter how we shuffle the cards or change up the order he always wins. I was curious to see what would happen if he being the great mother I am I rigged the game and taped it. This is what happened :)


For the past couple of months I have seen people post FML (fuck my life) after just about any ridiculous thing they can think of. Like
"ow I stubbed my toe! FML"
"A bird crapped on my car! FML!"
"I got a ticket! FML"
"Jury duty...FML"
"I'm constipated..FML"

the list goes on and on. It is so annoying that people are so dramatic that they would say "FML" over such dumb things. I guess maybe they don't realize what they are saying. Don't get me wrong there are sometimes when it can be appropriate to feel like your life is fucked, and maybe sometimes it is. Maybe the death of a loved one or a big tragedy but stubbing your toe? seriously? Get over yourself! Everyone has crappy things happen to them, it is just part of life, but I feel bad for those people who feel their life sucks that bad that they have to say that. I have made a promise to myself to never say that over something stupid because I have so much in my life that I am happy for. I am blessed to have a wonderful husband, two beautiful healthy kids, the best family, and the most awesome friends ever, what do I have to complain about? I will still rant and rave every once in a while about something dumb but it won't ever include FML. Besides that just sounds gross...eff your life? Isn't that kind of like effing yourself? Eeeewwwww

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Oh its YOU again

The time has come to go back and visit that dreadful place we call the gym. I suppose it is time to come clean and admit just how much weight I gained this last pregnancy that has made this whole gym thing a must. Ok well maybe I won't give you a definite number but we will say it is somewhere between 49 and 51 pounds. I couldn't believe how much I had gained this time especially since I gained only about half of that with Braden. Maybe it was my not so great attitude towards eating this pregnancy that did me in. Here are some of my excuses that I used:

"I can eat that I'm pregnant"
"one more is ok its for the baby"
"I'll worry about it later"
"calories don't count right now"
"I can't eat like this once the baby comes so I better get it in now"
"I haven't gained THAT much"

and of course ignoring/avoiding the scale. I'm not going to lie I really just didn't care this time. I ate what I wanted when I wanted and I enjoyed every minute of it...well until now. I will also come clean that I didn't stop my bad eating habits right away either. Another bad mentality...."welllll I can't work out yet so I should just enjoy it." It is true I was put on major restrictions after my second c-section and no working out for 6 weeks was one of them. I could have started eating better to give myself a head start but honestly who the hell wants to cook when you have been up all night with a newborn? I am honestly starting to believe a new mother started the fast food concept. What is there not to love? It is yummy and fast...if only it wasn't so bad for you.

So basically I didn't start eating good and didn't necessarily make things worse but I sure didn't make them any better. Without exercising and eating good I still managed to drop 25lbs. I am sure a lot of that was water weight leftover from the pregnancy and breastfeeding sure doesn't hurt but that still leaves me with 25lbs AND in addition I want to lose another 20lbs to be happy with myself.

My routine consists of 3 days a week at the gym and NO MORE junk food. That means no more chips, cookies (ok maybe one occasionally), candy, fast food, or anything I know I shouldn't eat. I went and bought a bunch of healthy snack and things to eat and so far they are all pretty yummy. I am also going to allow myself one cheat day a week so I don't go crazy and kill someone, because lets face it everyone needs some grease once in a while. Since I have started I have lost 2lbs. and i have to say for my first week I don't think that is too bad. I know it is going to take a lot of hard work and I am going to have to be strong if I want the results. I have done it before so I know I can do it again, I will :)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

6 week update...just a few days late

I seriously can't believe it has already been 6 weeks since I had Brody. That may not sound like a lot of time to some people but when you are only getting a handful of hours of sleep a night getting through one day is a blessing. Brody is a good baby (and getting CHUNKY) I just can't wait for him to sleep through the night. He has become a little more fussy the past week or so but it isn't anything too crazy. He is so far an easier baby than Braden was. Braden had a lot of colic and would just cry and cry and cry, it was horrible, but so far Brody only cries when he is hungry. When he is not crying because he is hungry he is either sleeping or hanging out. It is so fun to watch him grow everyday. He just started smiling (which I have NOT caught on camera yet)and seems much more alert. I will sound stupid to those of you who don't have kids but the best feeling you will have as a parent is the first time your baby smiles at you. It makes the sleepless nights, being peed and puked on, and not showering in a few day totally worth it.

My 6 week check up at the doc was good. She put me on some baby preventers and told me everything looked good from my c-section so I pretty much have the green light to have another one! A few days after my check up I started getting the chills, shakes, and aches. I thought I was coming down with the flu and it was horrible. I mentioned some of the symptoms to my expecting club and a few of them told me to call the doc. I did call her and it turns out I had an infection in my boob from breastfeeding...oh yaaay. Lucky me, but it is ok now I am on antibiotics and feel great.

I also feel more connected to Brody lately. In the beginning I feel as though I was going through a small version of the baby blues. Not depressed just a little disconnected. I didn't have a huge want to hold him and to even be around him that much. It was a weird feeling that I hadn't experienced with Braden. I think I have just been so overwhelmed with everything. New baby, big baby, husband, still no work, bills.....well you get it. Finally I realized just how lucky I am to have a healthy baby. A few girls in my expecting club unfortunately lost their babies and it hit me hard. Every time I would start to complain about having to get up in the middle of the night, or not want to hold him, or be frustrated that I was peed on AGAIN I realized how shitty I sounded. There are women out there who would give anything in the world to have to get up at 3am to feed their babies but cant. I am lucky enough to have this beautiful healthy baby and I am complaining? Shame on me. The bottom line is that those feeling towards Brody have changed completely and I love him more everyday.

I am also trying to curb my "pessimistic" ways and be more of an "optimist" but anyone who knows me knows I am not the most positive person. I have come to realize that there are worse things in life than not being able to pay your bills. For the time being Jon and I have each other and two beautiful healthy kids. We will roll with whatever we are dealt. We can handle it, we always have before.

Oh and one more thing....I have stated back up at the gym but that is an entirely different post!